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  1. 2 points
    It's been a journey really. I remember being on the original Onision forums back in 2011. Life was shitty back in '11 and I found comfort in Onision Speaks videos. At the time, his "advice" felt like a decent surrogate to shitty parenting. Boy was that wrong. I worked my way up to being a moderator while I was there; I felt like it was one of the few ways I could really contribute to a community. This was half-true. Mods were just a bandage when the forum's true problem, its owner, reared his ugly head. I think Ryan would have been a mirror in this weird metaphor. Onision's garbage had been around for a while, but Ryan got me to really look at the forum's ugly side. Ridiculous censorship rules, a dogmatic owner... My removal as mod for being "male" was the last nail in the coffin for me. ("Male" was another word for "he made me feel butthurt"- you'd think for being such a popular youtuber, "Bananafaglord" shouldn't mean a thing.) I think my first real encounter with @ragreynolds was when I first asked him wtf he was up to. I didn't get an answer immediately (who would really respond to an OFO mod's questioning?). The answer came with the creation of RR. The details get fuzzy around that point. I remember getting my moderation position back only to leave it for RR. Good riddance. Details get fuzzy around then. I tend to remember things I wish I had done differently most of all. For example, I wish I was a better admin to RR when I had the chance. I'm certainly no suicide bomber but I could have done better than I had. I'm glad I was able to help out when I was there. I wish I talked to a lot of you more often. Besides RR, life was a certain kind of hell for me. I was stuck with abusive and neglectful parents for most of my time here, and I'm still learning about how much it fucked me up. It made me isolate myself, become arbitrarily critical, and I feel that I alienated a lot of you with it. This forum was an eye-opener in a few ways for me. It was one of the many factors that drove me towards getting some psychological help. RR helped me realize I had some problems and I'm thankful for it. In a way, RR gave me more support than my family ever could have. Maybe some of you have felt the same? I've been busy, besides that junk. I'm a semester away from graduating with three associates degrees, two away from a bachelor's. It seems like RR will be gone before either happens, though. I'm happy to have been here in the first place.
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    I've been trying to be the mature one here and not start anymore shit than you've already started but I really do not appreciate when people play the victim card. Yes, there is drama sometimes in the group, but its very rarely at this point and I have no idea where you got "clicking on it everyday". And saying you don't speak of people badly, that's laughable. Nobody ever spoke poorly about you, but I've been hearing that you speak very poorly about me and my friends, even though we don't talk to you anymore. And that's the thing, we've tried to talk to you and work it out but you would like to keep the drama going I suppose. What token meant by hiding behind Ryan ad George was that people tried to work things out with it and instead you ignored them/blocked them. And then you proceed to shade people even when they are no longer in your lives. You don't want screenshots taken of you? Stop saying rude shit like: And don't use your anxiety as an excuse when you can without even batting an eye say you should tell someone you once considered a friend to jump off a bridge because you clearly have no regards to other peoples wellbeings and you don't know what I could possibly be going through. You're only trying to think of yourself and it's a shame because we've all been pretty nice to you and considered you a friend. It's unfortunate what has happened between everyone because I thought you were cool, but if these are your true colors, I'm thankful that you've shown them. Have a nice life and good luck with finishing school I truly wish the best for you and I hope you get your anxiety under control.
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    Hey Vii, I think it's time to open up the uh, wounds here. Yes, I am the one that said "I don't see why everyone kisses Vii's ass" a couple years back in the anon section. Whether or not anyone else remembers that, I don't know. I had to have been 16-17 years old at that time. I've grown since then. I was literally just being a dumbass who didn't know any better. I just saw you as this new kid who was being worshiped solely because you were dating Ryan. That was just my perspective of it. I didn't try to get to know you because I was turned off by your "popularity." Which looking back on is stupid since it's the internet, but to be fair this used to be a bigger part of my life. I'm here now to own up to my shit. Why didn't I do it sooner? Well, simply because I had forgotten about the post anyway, and plus it seemed like everything was fine for a while. You never reached out to me to be like "hey bitch, I snooped into the anon shit and saw your comment so fuck you." I rather would have you called me out back then instead of holding it in and eventually fully withdrawing from our group (though there were other reasons too). Then at least the water would have been cleared way sooner than it is now. Anyone can look at this and think "why is Token reaching so far?" "what if Vii's comment had nothing to do with you?" Everyone gossips about everyone. There have been recent screenshots passed around. That's why I am aware that you still have some type of feelings about it to this day. Maybe you say you're over it, but it still fuels you. I'm making this post to open myself up about it. You can bitch me out, you can take this and accept what I did was a dumb kid mistake. What you can't keep doing is going around being shady about petty drama; using Ryan, or even George, as your human shield to talk to other people. If they can say you're upset about something, then you're more than capable of admitting to it to the person who hurt you. I mean I can see why you would use them like that, but it for sure is a reflection of your character. And again, this is all observation from the recent discord fiasco that happened as well as the screenshots that have been passed around. But, I do apologize for the comment I made that I didn't foresee the consequences to. It was still wrong of me to do so yes, but I do know what the affects of it are now. I'm willing to make up for this, and if you don't want to that's fine, but I couldn't remain behind a door anymore.